31/Oct/2009 - Days after 4th chemo - RING RING RING

U must be thinking this "Ring Ring Ring?? I thought ur phone been pick pocketed..."

Doc say i m progressing well, and he ask why I still working?? My mom again combo attack me with the doc. She said I been going out every weekend to meet friend. Doc face turn black. He say "I thought I asked you to rest, why you still going out?". I feel like being shoot by machine gun (both doc & mom). He asked me to reduce the steroid from 3 tablet daily to 2 and stop completely on Tuesday onward.
Doc issue me a MC for 6 day, from Thu - Tue

15/Oct - my 4th chemo without classical song... been awake for the boRING 2-3 hours session. Come back and sleep. Veri TiRING. Dunno why both hand and leg feel pain (just a bit uncomfortable feel).
16/Oct - Wow, I sleep even more. Really tired. Pain still there.
17/Oct - Sat, usually I will online, but its been a tiring day. Sleep like pig
18/Oct - Sun, usually I will online (again??), but its been another tiring day. Sleep like pig (twice).
19/Oct - Working day. What??? I thought ur MC is till Tue?... What a record... I sleep @ 10pm! Tired, just walk slowly.
20/Oct - New record again... I sleep @ 11pm!
21/Oct - Day without steroid... what do u think? Its dead man walking. Pain still there.
22/Oct - Just another tiring and pain day
23/Oct - Ehem... I m back... got 70% my energy back.
24/Oct - Sat, I m sleeping @ home.. what a miracle...
25/Oct - Sun, I m sleeping @ home again???(God must be answering my mom prayers)

Well, days after 4th chemo is really suffeRING, every step I take is slow and pain. I keep telling myself, no pain will be forever, it will be gone soon, 1 fine day. I just walk slowly and wait for the day to come

I got chemo again next week @5/Nov. 5 of 6 chemo.

ps: Are you still wondeRING why I put RING,RING,RING? Nah, you should be smart enough to figure it out

14/Oct/2009 - Bad luck, does it exist?

Well 2009 is a bad luck year for me? Does bad luck exist? Or thing just don't happen like what you want to be, that why you called it as bad luck? Lets see what happen to me this 2009 year

April
bad - Admitted to hospital for 1st sinus surgery (Damai Service Hospital)
good - received a lot of sms from friends

May
bad - Resigned from my current job and rejected an job offer. Make me jobless for 6 weeks. This is called stupidity
good - a few friend helped me to forward my CV without need to be asked for it.

June
bad - Admitted again to hospital for 2nd sinus surgery (Gleneagle Intan Hospital)
good - received a lot of sms from friends

July
bad - Certified as cancer patient by doctor
good - got new vision in life. Know what I want more in life
- received a lot of gift from friend and ex-colleague

Sep
bad - 1 of my front tire and rim got stolen from train station (KTM)
good - prove to myself "I still can do it" (and change the tire by myself)

Oct
bad- My handphone got pick-pocketed inside train (KTM)
good - My mom will be happy. She know I will stay at home more after this.

Is it bad luck? Or unwanted things just happen every month! Nah no such thing as bad luck. Only things don't happen like how I want it to be... that is life, just be ready to face the unexpected, and it will add more spices to our life (mine maybe too spicy - it happened every month)

06/Oct/2009 - Days after 3rd chemo

I took my 3rd chemo last Thu (24/Sep). I went with my sis and mom. This time, doc and my mom combo attack me (yeah they lecture me again - ask me to resign from my work - gosh!!). Well a good news, doc say I m progressing very well, my blood count is perfect.

Something bad that I heard from other patient that make my high spirit break down (once again). Another nose cancer patient who had done 6 chemo session + 20 radiotherapy and doc already confirm he is cancer free, but doc advise him to do a few more round of CHEMO again....???? Just to make sure the cancer cell is totally gone. I never thought of having to redo chemo again after recovered...

Past few blog, I did mention about blood coming out from my nose, doc confirm that is dead cancer cell, and no worries it is good.

25/Sep - Can eat & sleep well. I even went to my cousin wedding buffet dinner.
26/Sep - I sleep for 3 times today. Never felt this tired before. Whole body is aching. Chest pain, hand pain, nose pain, everywhere is pain...
27/Sep - I had to cancel 1 appointment today. I sleep for 3 hours from 1pm - 4pm. Gosh. I m getting weak?
01/Oct - I m back.. I got my energy back
05/Oct - I went for a light jogging.. feel so good sweating a bit, with the chilling wind around me.